Don’t get me wrong, I definitely caught feelings, and was wrestling with those feelings when I got back. But, he just didn’t seem that interested… so… I tried to get over that sh*t…

… and to be fair I think he was kind of uncomfortable because he is really tall and that car is kind of tiny in the back. So mid make out he’s like “Ow my leg” …which is so Spongebob lol.

He was also dying over how good I smelled and… tbh I think there are other girls that just always smell f*cking amazing (like Rihanna), and I’m not one of them.

I walked into the living room and he was already laying down… he looked sleepy. He opened up his arm and I just laid down next to him. No words… just one of those things where you don’t need words. We just cuddled and watched the documentary.

I was cooking the chicken and Jamie turned me around and kissed me. He kind of backed me into the wall near the stove and clocked his head and leaned in. (Ahhhh when guys tilt their head like that before kissing you aksjdfakjfh;kha;esjd). The make out was getting steamier than the chicken on the stove….

Me: “Well I guess it’s just not in the cards this time”

Sometimes you just have to accept defeat. I had so much fun with him, but probably would never see him again. Fun memory, new friend… I’ll take it.

My flight was at like 10- something, so I had planned on leaving at like 7. Around 5, I hear my phone buzz… Maybe my flight was delayed or something…

The whole gang pulled up in the Jeep a few hours later. Seb packed up all my things in a little bag. He was quiet, I could tell he was really sad.

I realized I love PDA. Some people hate it- totally fine, it’s not for everyone. But, I love it. And I’m not gonna be apologetic about it either. 8 billion people in the world and you choose one. Yeah, be obsessed with me and let me be obsessed with you.

This guy got to wake up next to a baddie, go do his meeting, and then come right back to a baddie (yeah, even if I looked like a little crackhead, I’m still a bad b*tch). Then… out of nowhere, we hear his doorbell (wtf). I’m like… “are you expecting someone…?”

Me: “If this guy doesnt show up in 5 mins I’m stealing you and making you show me where to get some good food (laughing emoji)”

Okay-so, all this to say- great, I liked someone, still do, I’m not seeing them anymore, obviously it’s hard, obviously I miss him, obviously this sucks! So why did I put myself through this in the first place?

… but he was really perfect on paper. He checked all the boxes. Evan was one of the profiles that I got the “Most compatible: Nayomi & Evan you two should meet” messages from the app. The algorithm must be onto something.

He got me a hot dog and watched me inhale it. (I LOVE hotdogs btw. Not a weird analogy or anything, I truly am just a hotdog queen). He took a deep breath and made a “no comment” face lol.

First of all- SAY LESS FAM, I’m brown, I eat with my hands anyway. Couldn’t agree more. The food tastes so much better. It IS the better way to eat.

Secondly…. the second half of that felt weirdly sensual and I’m into it.

B: “Well you don’t haveee to drive home. Good thing I live a few blocks away”

It was one of those half jokes. Like one of those things you throw out there just to see if it sticks.

Is this what keeps people up at night? Do I just have main character energy?? Is he having an existential crisis?

I got a little rush out of knowing he wanted to see me, but I also kept my distance.

1) I had a boyfriend

2) I wanted to keep my professional life and personal life separate.

Of course I didn’t think much of it- the guys sick… give him some time to recover…

Me: “Are you actually Buddhist?”

(I don’t know- guys say some weird stuff for attention.)